Everything Meant to Happen?

The jig is up: I didn't get any callback interviews. Disappointed? Yes - but not to a point of detriment. I'm more jealous of the fact that my other friends managed callback interviews...many of them. I thought I performed reasonably well in my interviews. In the end, there's only so much that I can hope for.

However, I'm a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. What could be indicative of this ego-buster? Well, for starters, I attended the Boston Lawyer's Group kick-off dinner tonight. Being among a greater number of law students, not to mention a more diverse group of attorneys, has made me realize how much I want to be in Boston after I graduate from law school. In fact, this experience made me envious of the fact that I am not part of the Boston legal community. I am in awe of many of these attorney accomplishments, and it makes me strive to become more than what I think my limitations are.

Last semester, I felt trapped in Hartford, which severely limited my scope. I thought that I could perhaps start my legal career in Hartford, and in essence, thought about settling here. However, what I realized today was that I have no interest in staying in Hartford beyond my three years at the law school. What I truly want is to be back in Boston - among a more diverse, dynamic, and energetic group. I want to be part of the Boston legal community more than anything else. In order for me to get there, I need to work smart this semester. I need to be better than what I think I can be.

In short, I need to perform even above my own expectations. After this interview experience, I realized that I am my own greatest critic. If I don't think I deserve to be at a firm, then no one else should think so either. Before I try to fool someone else into thinking I'm qualified, I have to first past my own mirror test. With that, I leave this entry with three things that will aid me in my ultimate goal of returning to Boston:

1) Write well and develop my analytical abilities

2) Don't sell myself short of my resume

3) Be confident in who I am, and always keep the big picture in mind. Don't let the confining walls of Hartford limit what I ultimately can accomplish.